Remembrance Book - In loving memory of Spike

Spikey boy, it’s been 3 days since you fell asleep forever and I miss you so much my lad. I’ll never forget the 2nd July 2019, I tried my best to get home in time when mum and dad got me out of work because you had the seizure. I’m so sorry that I wasn’t there for you when that happened my boy, but mum and dad took good care of you until I got home. Driving to the vets was heartbreaking for me, knowing I couldn’t sit with you on the way there, but again you were with mum and she comforted you all the way. I eventually got to hold you as we waited in the vets, I’m so grateful for that, you lay on me the whole time and I could feel your heart beating. I had to make the hardest decision of my life that day but I had no other option, you were in pain and you were weak and I could see that you had gave your all. You kept trying to lift your head up to me despite how weak you were and that broke my heart. I held your head and looked into your eyes until the very end and I feel so privileged to have been there. I feel like you waited for me, we had the most special bond and we loved eachother unconditionally. I picked your ashes up yesterday so you will be with me always, you would of loved the place that I chose, it had a well and a bridge, it was so beautiful and green. Spike, I keep thinking you’re still here boy, the first thing I do is look down for you when I come through the door, or first thing in the morning when you’re not at the bottom of the stairs in your bed. I would do anything to have you sat on the couch with me, or to be able to sneak you meat from the fridge again. I still think I can hear you sometimes. Everyone misses you so much, I know that I’ll think about you every single day for the rest of my life. I’m going to sort a corner of my room out so I can put your ashes and photos, and your collar and hair that I brought home from Leyland on the day of your resting. You were unbelievably special my tutz, and there will never be another you. I always said you were my first born son, and I stick by that. I’ll love you forever, until we meet again, goodbye my boy Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx