My darling girl Martha. My heart is broken beyond words. It's been 2 weeks since we said goodbye to you and I miss you more and more everyday. It still doesn't feel real that you're gone. I walk into my room expecting to see your little head pop up to greet me. But instead I'm met with silence. The grief of loosing you has been the heaviest yet emptiest feeling I've ever felt, I've lost my other half and now I don't know how to be me without you. I'm so glad you're now out of pain, I couldn't let you suffer. It was the worst thing I've ever had to do. I can't quite put into words how much you will always mean to me. You're my inspiration and everything I do will always be for you. I hope you're running around up there and you've found all your old friends, you can finally experience what it's like to run again and be free of all the pain. If my love could have saved you, baby girl you would have lived forever. So until we meet again, wait for me up there because you'll be the first one I look for. Sleep tight and run free my baby. I love you forever
